I’m up tonight for a different reason. Other than the cup of coffee I had at 9pm, I picked up some assignments today and have a few days to get them done. I’m trying to discipline myself better on getting the work done earlier than the day of the deadline. I’m excited to do these. There is a certain thrill of getting assignments when you A) don’t know when you’ll get more B) Don’t even know if these will sell. But unlike July when I got so few, it is nice that there is at least some work out there.
But now my mind is spinning on how to write them. Steeling myself to get as much done over the next couple days as possible to free up my weekend, and well, there is the elephant in the room for me.
I haven’t worked on the book much over the last couple weeks. I’ve been too busy with other things. At the end of the day, I find myself scrolling social media or bombarding friends with TikToks. Last night I did sleep though. I slept seven hours solid for the first time in a while without antihistamines, a nightcap, or even listening to ASMR videos on YouTube. Part of that is probably that it is cooler.
The leaves are starting to turn. I think it is going to be an early Fall this year.
I need to get my files sorted on my computer for upcoming photo shoots. The Fall colors up here are amazing. I can probably improve storage space by deleting a bunch of pictures, or putting them on my backup drive. Which I will probably do in the next few days or so.
The challenge I face tomorrow is knowing I have three assignments to write and I often find it hard to get motivated enough to just freakin’ do it. I almost always feel better when I am done, but the worst part is the waiting. Then the edits, which might come several weeks later. It leaves me second-guessing myself and my abilities. I don’t necessarily agree with some of the clients who send back requests. I think much of it is based on what their analytics come back with as far as SEO optimization suggestions. That doesn’t always make for better writing, or interesting content.
But like the pteradactyl on the Flintstone’s says when they use him like a record player, ” MAWWH! It’s a living!”
Tonight I’m nervous about starting the assignments tomorrow. I hope like Hemingway says, “As long as you can start, you are all right. The juice will come.”
I would really love to do some writing for me tonight, which is the whole reason I even posted this. I’m hoping to get my head out of the place where I have to be to write content for customers, and instead focus on my own story, which has been sorely neglected as of late.
Maybe all I need to do is start.